Respected honorable Hakeem sahib, Assalamo alekum! I was dipped so much in great sins. Luckily I heard your lecture on the internet, so then through you Allah made me and my wife a worshiper and we regularly listen to your lectures by downloading them from the internet. So many blessings come to our home due to the prayers in the end of the lectures and we husband wife and our son now are on right path. Since this spiritual relationship is being established with you now my condition is this that before this I never even went to offer eid prayer in the mosque , there was a strange power that does not let me go to the mosque but now by the grace of Allah I also offer tahajjud prayer. It’s been a while that I m feeling a strange condition that when I offer prayer or when I bow down I began to cry so much and now I begin to imagine that whenever I don’t cry in my worship I feel that may be I have done any sin and my Allah is angry with me that I do not cry in my prayer. Before my heart was very hard but now my heart is very soft. I begin to weep when I lift my hands for prayer thinking of the blessings of Allah. Now I feel relief by caring and serving elders and seniors. I often try to gather elders and seniors together and sit with them. Pray for me that Allah makes me capable for this. I feel very good when you say people of Allah! In your lectures, I despise pray that the Allah will accept your this prayer. Now I just want that my Allah makes me beloved and I want nothing else.  I have realized now that what I will gain by sitting in the companionship of people close to Allah. The real comfort of life is only in this; all rest is just an illusion. I have spent useless so many years of my life. I never pray, I never fast, I never did remembrance of Allah, I never did well to any one, I never cared for any one. I cry so much and pray for the forgiveness by Allah on my past life and at the same time I thanks him millions of time that my Allah gives so much blessings on me that he lifts me from dirty water and makes me a worshiper. I live in England and I forgot my Urdu language now I m writing Urdu after 20 years and feeling a strange friendliness, feeling a strange happiness. In the end I despise prays that Allah will give you a long life and makes your this pious mission successful. Amen.