Respected hakim sahib Assalamualikum! May Allah bless you, your family, your followers, your teachers till the last day. I will explain you today what I received from your dars. I belong to a middle class family. Since I was born, I never saw anyone praying, reading Quran and following any other religious practice at home. We start our day with breakfast. The gents of house will to their work and the ladies will finish their house hold work. Then they would watch Television whole day long. One of my sisters ran away with a boy in the neighbor and got married to him. Later everything was settled between the families, a boy became my friend who made me fool and left me later. After him a started making boyfriends and enjoyed the time spent with them. In 12th grade, I actually fell in love with a guy. But his family got him married to someone else. I cried a lot but all in vein. After that I was always quite. One of my uncles told my family that I was suffering from an evil spirit and it should be treated. They took me to an Aalim with my father. It was very peaceful environment. The Aalim seemed to be very courteous; He prayed and blew on me. He insisted me to pray and read wazifa given by him. I felt very peaceful. When we came back home, my family members started making fun of that Aalim. Ii also did the same. Many times that Aalim came to my dream and he would insist me to read the wazifa prescribed by him. But later I went to the Aalim again. He again advised me to read the wazifa given by him. When I was in my 3rd year of my college, I again started making boyfriend, whole night I would talk to different boys by changing sims and would sleep after fajr. The talks in the mobile were further extended to meeting in the hotel rooms. I didn’t know why I was doing it. But I was lost in the world of fantasy. I was always provided with what I wished for. These boys gave me expensive mobiles, gifts, gold sets, branded suits, meals from expensive hotels. Then there came a time when people started calling me a prostitute. I started smoking. I studied till BA and left studying. My parents could not get me married but I spent my life in such wrong activities and leisure. Despite of all these, my life was always un-peaceful and restless. Then one of my friends gave me ubqari magazine. I had a glance on it did not pay attention. Then my friend started getting ubqari magazine every month to my house. I started reading it. Light of faith was enlightened in me. When I once read your article in ubqari, I started listening to your dars on internet. I did ablution for the first time with shivering hands and prayed with shivering body and lips. I cried a lot on the prayer mat. I woke up during fajr prayer. Did ablution again and prayed. Although I did not know how many sunnat and farz are there in fajr prayer. I blocked all my Sims, broke all my phone, burnt all expensive clothes and shoes. Then I learnt how to pray from my friend and learnt about my religion on how I should live it. I started reading religious books. There were boys who still followed me and used to make voices in front of my house, we then left the house and shifted to another place. We all have started following religious practices at home. My father and brother have started praying. I have learnt many dua from your dars and practice reading it on daily basis. I used to be flared up in seconds. Now storms enrage inside me but my language is restrained. I recite the supplication after ablution. I recite supplication before going to sleep 11 times,durood shareef thrice, sura fatiha once, surah ikhlaas thrice, kalma tayyaba thrice and renew my faith. Sometimes thrice and sometimes رَبَّنَآ اٰتِنَا فِی الدُّنْیَا حَسَنَۃً وَّ فِی الْاٰخِرَۃِ حَسَنَۃً وَّقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ ۔11 times اَسْتَغْفِرُاللہَ الَّذِیْ لَا اِلٰہَ اِلَّا ھُوَالْحَیُّ الْقَیُّوْمُ وَاَتُوْبُ اِلَیْہ ayat-ul-kursi thrice, 100 times durood shareef (صَلَّی اللہُ عَلٰی مُحَمَّدٍ). 11 times (یَابَاعِثُ یَانُوْر) while placing my hand on my heart. Then I take a deep breath and imagine placing the name of Allah in my heart and then closing the lid. I have taken these supplications from your sermons. I have been engaged with my cousin (son of my aunt) he wants to marry me even though he knows everything about me. Alhumdulillah he is a prayer leader in a mosque and our nikah is planned to be conducted in a mosque very soon.
I was a prostitute: Readers if anyone around you who came back to the right path then please please does write and send her complete story to the editor Ubqari. Your story will be published by totally changed name and place. All type of people read Ubqari magazine may be from your writing someone came out from the darkness to the light of right path and this becomes the sadqa for you and your offspring.
