Respected Hakeem sahib! I wish that may Allah bless you with good health and long life, and may Allah keep Tasbee Khana Populated until the last day and  may it remain the guideline for the sinners like me.

I often write my experiences and observations, from the day I started the life of a'maal and I have found the peace. Otherwise I have tried committing suicide thrice, there were tensions and quarrel every time and the only reason was the harm money and livelihood. When I came in my husbands' house after marriage I saw a lot of haram livelihood there. My husband and my father-in-law both were bringing haram money in house, in any way, that time was of young age and religious understanding and knowledge of its outcomes was not also there, we always saw trouble in our family and my sister in laws were also living the miserable life, they did not stay in their family for long, time was passing my husband was committing all types of sins like zina, drinking, drugs, gambling and he also used to beat me, it was his practice but I was patient. I did not tell to my parents and anybody else, I just keep my patience. I used to scare while talking to my husband that he may start beating me, his good habit was that he love his children so much and he never let food to decrease. impious livelihood showed its aftereffects I became unhealthy , my kidneys were damaged and due to stones( pathri) my ears became unhealthy, eyesight went weak, piles and many other problems came ......

Then I come to know about some bad habits of my husband which I did not know before i lived him so much and he knew that, I tried to commit suicide but was saved. He took this incident seriously and he apologized and decided not to commit sin again. he was unable to sleep without taking drugs, I stop him to take drugs and stayed awake with until he sleeps, I keep doing that and finally this habit come to an end.

I used to pray to Allah while crying that give us Halal Rizq save us from Haram, I never tease my husband by extra demands, whatever I got, I thanked Allah for that. Allah helped and my husband got right path to walk he started offering Namaz, Haram money is not coming in our house now. When I came to Tasbee khana it really changed my life. I started Wazaif I use to play dars especially when my husband comes; gradually he also started paying attention to it. Then a change came and increased. 

Respected Hakeem Sahib, By God sack of fruit comes in our home and one boy use to go and get it and he filled the refrigerator. Then we left no place to keep it. Children eat fruit whole day. It was in abundance but that was haram..... Thanks to almighty Allah it’s not haram now, halal earnings are there now. Hazrat there is Barka'h not abundance.

We cannot afford fruit now, very less fruit comes but i am so happy because it is better to eat halal than haram. I come to attend sermon every Thursday. I saw that now I do all domestic tasks, recite wazifas, I don’t sleep after fajar and sleeps at 10 after isha but despite all I feel myself healthy. But before I used to feel myself ill and now it seems that I am young again. This all is just because of halal earning, leaving of haram, and offering of sala'h and important of all that I was patient about all miseries that came in my way.

My Allah showed such mercy that my husband who had always been rebuking me and hitting me on trivial things and happy about his illegal relations with ladies now he does not feel good without me. I do everything as I wish, he does not interrupt. He gives whole money in my hand and remains reciting wazifa, mostly recites Drood Shreef but I got all this because of long patience.

Its true Allah is with those who show patience and He gives better prize of this. Jinn of haram earning went out ten peace came. We stopped music, remove idles, all toys and picture are removed.

There was a time when music was the sign of my presence in home. Every member of family was listening to songs. While awaking in morning songs were used to be played and it is said that if there are songs played, it means that I am at home but now by listening to them I feel that ears will blast and I will die. What will happen if my death time comes while having the habit of listening music? 

Now if I could not offer the fajar any day I feel scared that my Allah is angry with me then I apologize and talk to him. Hazrat it’s true that now I have learned to ask from Allah and I learned to Love Him, please pray for my next generations to be saved from sins and they add this sermon and Amma'l in their lives. My life's purpose is now the message of Tasbee khana that we will be successful by Aamal and grow by Ammal and will be saved By Aamal and thanks to Almighty Allah that I am getting success, growing and with یَاحَفِیْظُ I am being protected also.