Assalam-o-Alaikum. I want to share few of my feelings with you. I joined your discipleship and soon the holy month of Ramadan arrived. I thought that it would be a great pleasure if I spend my Ramadan in the Tasbeeh Khana. I went there with my parent’s permission. On 1st night of Ramadan, I woke up for the Tahajjud prayer and started begging to ALLAH. I felt that ALLAH’s benevolence is attentive and the drizzle of his blessings is showering on me. I have experienced the same previously in my Masjid but here, in the Tasbeeh Khana, I felt it much more intense and enjoyed a lot. Now my prayers are accepted by ALLAH. By the grace of ALLAH, I have started begging to HIM. When on the 2nd fast, I mentioned about the Nafi Asbaat (meaning: you negate every thing except Allah), I felt slight pain on the side of my heart but I ignored it. I experienced the same pain on the 3rd day as well. On the 4th day, I felt dense black matter releasing from my heart.
Whenever I offer prayers, I feel the same rain on my shoulders. On 21st fast I was doing Nafi Asbaat, I prayed to Allah and I did it from my heart while I kept my tongue touching the back of the throat. The pleasure I acquired was such which I never felt before. On the 22nd fast, I was doing Nafi Asbaat with much attention; my heart was doing Zikar and I was begging to ALLAH. I said to myself that now this problem is resolved and my heart is always occupied in praying. I was having my meal and my heart was praying. There is so much pleasure in praying from the heart that an hour or half spends without my realizing. This is the first experience of my life.
